is a hard place to be
when you're nineteen and feeling free
but still unsure of the person who you want to be.
to create dissonance
between what you believe
and everything you see.
it's a country overcrowded with bodies
but you won't see a single person.
and all those little faces you saw on tv before you came,
housing big, pleading eyes
and hungry mouths,
well they aren't as cute
when they follow you home,
and you have no change,
and change won't change much,
and you're sorry.
no, they aren't as cute
when they come from behind
pin your arms to your sides
and their friends, all under ten,
pick your pockets with well-trained hands.
it's a really hard place to be
when you're trying to decide
what school to go to in the fall
or what boy to date back home
when nothing reminds you of home
but it's all you can think of anyways.
india is a place you'll want to forget
when you're back in the states
trying to materialize your most basic dreams--
the ones you always felt you deserved--
of a house, a husband, a few kids, & enough to eat.
it's a place that will make you hungrier for that dream
than you've ever been before
but india is a place
that will hide in the back of your mind and whisper,